In The Beginning...

There was happiness...innocence...sweetness. You know how as you're growing up, everyone around you is telling you, "Don't be in such a rush to grow up! When you're grown you're gonna wish u were a child again!" Well, I wish that was the case for me. I keep waiting for the day when I'll wake up and say to myself, "Damn, I really wish I could go back to middle or high school." That day hasn't come, and I don't think it ever will...

But let's go back to the beginning...

When I was a small child, life was great! I was surrounded by strong willed, strong minded, intelligent women who cared more for me than they did themselves...my mother, my aunt, and my grandmother. Had the three of them not been who they were early on in my life, I probably wouldn't be all of who I am today. Life isn't easy, noone said it's supposed to be...but should you stop enjoying it before you even get to kindergarten?

Now don't get it twisted, I am the last person to COMPLAIN about the past, but I 4 damn sure am the first person to never forget it. If you forget your past, you forget yourself. Forgetting isn't healing...forgetting is hardly ever permanent...

In the beginning...

I Think It's Time For A Change

I read another blog and became extremely inspired to switch it up a bit. I don't blog as much as most other bloggers because typically the things that I'm always thinking about come at times when I'm not on the computer. I, unlike a great deal of bloggers, am not sitting in front of a computer for the better half of my day.

However, I always have a lot to say[just ask my lady]. At the same time, I don't find the need to rush to the computer every time a thought pops up in my head. However, this blog that I was reading was a blog talking about their life. The struggles, mostly, and some triumphs. I've been a long time fan of Oprah, as many people are, and she also has always spoken of writing being cathartic and healing, while always challenging her viewers to keep diaries.

While I have kept diaries off and on throughout my entire life, I have had the writing of a book placed on my heart for a while now. Everyone has their own story, you know, and everyone should tell their story, when they feel it is the right time for them to do so. Well...now is the time for mine.

I have decided to turn my blog into a storytelling one...one that is compelling and genuine, and one that I will hope can help me past a point in my life I've been at for far too long now. People are still more than welcome to comment, as I most certainly welcome it. I will create another blog in a while that will just be for my thoughts and ideas of current events, social topics, etc.

I invite any who dare, do come with me on my journey; perhaps this will propel you into beginning, continuing, or completing your own.

Who's to blame?

Okay...so I personally have no problem with a women having as many children as she would like. I, like most of America, come from one of those families whose older generation had a lot of children and never worried about what people thought, or how the family would survive. You just did what you had to do to make sure they did. However, unlike many families in todays time, my family didn't dwindle down to the Natinoal average of 2.5 children/household over the years. What I consider a relatively small family(my own which is a family of 4 children), most people today think is large. So, what in the worl are people thinking of this mother who has chosen, by IVF, to have 14, yes that's 14! children. If you haven't heard the story, here's part of it...her side at least.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090206/ap_on_re_us/octuplets

And if you're too lazy to read her side, here's the general consesus...the woman's mother has told the media how her daughter has been obsessed with having a lot of children all her life but has been unable to because she has malfunctioning fallopian tubes(they get clogged). So...she goes and gets multiple eggs, since there's nothing wrong with them, fertilized and frozen, all by the same sperm. Long story short, she already has 6 children now by this procedure, IVF, ranging in age from 3-7, and now has 8 more by this procedure. Is this mother crazy, or just passinoate about children?

Her mother calls her crazy because she has no husband, no place to stay(she's living with her mother), and get this, NO JOB! WTF! Now, that's where I have the problem. Okay, so you want a lot of children, I can relate, but to have 14 and no means of supporting them, that's just plain wrong. The mother claims that she is making up for the lonliness she felt fro being an only child. HA! That she never wanted her child to feel that lonliness. Ok...great, but 14! And with NO JOB?!

And maybe I'm wrong, but I could have sworn that before htese types of procedures, plenty of evaluations occur. I know she would not have passed a psychiatric eval., and who on od's green Earth would have implanted her with that many embyos without the woman having a JOB! Now, I'm sorry, but I'm really stuck on the NO JOB! Anyway, why isn't someone also looking for this doctor? The media is slamming the mother so hard, but the mother can't implant the embryos herself. What doctor implanted the 6 embryos(which multiplied) in the first place. He's should definately be evaluated himself.

Okay, anyway, once again, let me emphasize that I definately understand the love f childrena dn wanting to raise a large family. However, I canNOT, in good faith okay this woman's decision, nor her doctors, to allow a woman with no job, no support, no place to live, other than her mothers, to have two babies, let-alone 14. Sorry.

A cure or a bandaid?

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/01/28/education/28educ.html?ref=todayspaper

For those of you who may not want to read the article, it's simply about some revisions made to Obama's stimulus plan, mostly funds towards education. Presumably, his stimulus plan would put $150 billion in the pockets of school districts, day care centers, and universities/colleges all over the nation.

Now, as a student and as an educator of children, I am the first to thank the Lord that Obama is following his promise of putting money into the right hands. He campaigned on the backs of college students all over America, most of which will probably end up owing the government more money than they ever thought they would. This is a nice way to say thank you, although I know it's much more than that.

In spite of my delightedness in this attempt, I must admit to some hesitancies. First, the stimulus ends in two years...what then? What happens to the schools who weren't able to spend all their money but the time has run out? Or the day care centers who may not need all of that money right now but could surely use it over the next few years? What happens to the universities who's enrollments go up because of more access to financial aid, but then they are unable to maintain after the two years?

Also, I must say, who is going to be in charge of deciding how the money is spent? I mean, in all honesty, the systems couldn't even figure out to save money and distribute it over the last decade, why would they be any better at it now?

Without being negative, I must say that maybe this shouldn't be passed just yet. I know that the educational system, arguably more then any other system right now, desperately needs a boost, but the systems need to know what to do with it when they get it and how to maintain once it runs out.

I hope all ends well with this.

Can You Believe This S#$T!

Bush defends his presidency

Well, ain't this about a B#$%#... If you haven't read the article, check it out.

And for those of you who have, can you believe this shit! Bush must think I'm stupid! He didn't go to New Orleans immidiately after Katrina because he didn't want to distract the police officers from helping the locals...

Bush must think I'm stupid! He still doesn't think that his accusations of "weapons of mass distruction" were a mistake...He continues to defend his decision to send 30,000 MORE troops over to Iraq just in 2007!

Is it just me, or is Bush still on that ooooowweee...I mean, he actually began to wrap up his final press conference by saying that the war will define his presidency as like no other. Well, no shit! He is officially, statistically the worst president in history and he feels the need to tell us, without telling us.

I don't know about everyone else, but I can't even begin to describe how excited I am about this man finally being done destroying our nation in a few days. But, don't celebrate too early...there still enough time for him to fuck somthin else up.